the schpeel.

Have A Six Flags Day??

2009-06-07T11:01:00.002-04:00

readyaimfire
Originally uploaded by vlandyra

So it's been a while since I blogged. A really long time matter of fact, but Im back to say the least. I was really inspired to return back to blogging because of my friend Fatima. I looked at her blog and I was like "oh. dont I have a blog too?". So this is where I ended up. So how have I been since December?

Tired. Sick. Maxed out and other things. Im not as terrible as I might describe it but Im kinda in a sucky mood because my hair is not done. Its at the point where its like why bother, so Ill just deal with the fro for now. Im an Iota Sweetheart. It feels so great to say that because Lord knows I worked hard to get there! Even saying it makes me smile. Iota Sweetheart ^_^. Just warms my heart. Other than that Im chillin like a villian at my summer job at Six Flags. Guys did you know this is my first job ever? Awesome right? Im just late with everything. Late with driving (still late), late with getting a job, late with life in general. But yeah that is really what this post is about. Alot of people ask me "what is it like working here?" or "do you like working here?". Well Im gonna answer.

Like every job it has its ups and downs. Ups: Pay is good, lost of fun and you're making people happy (if you do your job right). Downs: Long hours, LIME GREEN SHIRTS!!!, stress from handling all that money in games! Geez louis for everytime I think I gave the guest wrong change I must have went nuts. Most of all, guests be on some bitchassness to a level I cant describe. Now I know what you're thinking: there are more downs than ups BUT nevertheless Im there working despite the corny catchphrases like "Make It/Have a Six Flags Day!" and mantras and such.

Anyway, if you see me in the park stop by games! Im really fun to be around. Entertaining and such. Always making the most money in whatever seciton I go to. So ya help me out lol. Toodle-oos.

My President is Black....AND BUFF!

2008-12-24T14:00:00.005-05:00

lolllllll...Okay okay. So here is the thing. Recently Prez-Elect Obama was photographed shirtless on vacation in Hawaii. The media has gone into a frenzy about the "non-presidential" response by people and other stuff. I don't really know or care. What I wanna know is how did the paparazzi get so damn close with the Secret Service supposedly super close (haha alliteration)?? Anyway.

Obama looks good. The dude has abs. Did you not see the cover of Ebony magazine certifying him one of the coolest brothas of ALL TIME!? Well I happen to have that issue and no one can match the swag or sex appeal of Obama see below)....

Now don't get me wrong I'm not being a cougar (or I guess a kitten in this case) but my president has it going on!! I mean check out all of the past presidents. CHECK OUT CURRENT PRESIDENTS! I don't see the Prime Minister of Britain with his shirt off...hell to tha no! When has a president ever looked so good? Maybe JFK? MAYBE. He's no hunk, but how he has managed to stay fit after a hell of an election amazes me. All the stress would have had me stuffing Twinkies down my throat (P.S I hate Twinkies).

Say John McCain was president (God help us all if he was). We would NOT be seeing candid photos of him with his shirt off- not that anyone wants to. We all knew Obama was an athlete. He constantly played B-ball (AND WELL I MAY ADD) during the campaign and supposedly has a six day work out regimen. Apparently it has paid off....So um yeah. Bill Clinton. Step your game up. lol.

Dereon is Ugly! PERIOD!

2008-12-22T19:13:00.003-05:00

Beyonce - House of Dereon
Originally uploaded by SerenityF

The other day I was inside of Macys shopping for scome gifts for Christmas at the mall. I happened to roam ( or run to ) the women's clothing section and there was some Baby Phat, Rocawear and Apple Bottom. I look to my right and there is this zebra pattern dress with pink and blue splotches. I looked at the tag and low and behold it is Dereon...

This is not the first ugly piece of crap that has come from Dereon. I've seen a black tube dress with ugly thick stripes and some other ugly things. Now don't get me wrong Dereon has it's moments of true style but 7/10 times the clothing is ugly. For a clothing line whose motto is "couture. sick. soul" It is not of that...except for maybe sick...

Anyway. I wont be purchasing any Dereon anytime soon. It's like...too damn expensive. Unless there are some angels out there *hint hint* who wanna buy this number for me... ^_^

http://www1.macys.com/catalog/product/index.ognc?ID=341450&PseudoCat=se-xx-xx-xx.esn_results

How Can I Forget Something I Have No Knowledge Of?

2008-12-21T01:59:00.003-05:00

Family Tree
Originally uploaded by Victor Papaleo

As we all inch closer to Kwanzaa (oh yeah and Christmas) I've been thinking a lot about family. Kwanzaa is all about the coming together of Black family and black community to celebrate the seven principles which we live by and a chance for Blacks (non-Africans), to connect back to their roots. But for most Blacks (like 97 percent) the roots of the family tree don't run that deep.

Like, for me, I can only go back to my great grandparents. MAYBE great-great grandparents, but that's it! It makes me SO FRUSTRATED! I'm at this point and time in my life where I wanna know who I am and what my identity is. All I can think about is the notion that a majority of who and what I am got washed away in the Atlantic Ocean and the rest is literally history. To all my friends who have some recollection of their ethnicity who are able to say, "Oh my parents and grandparents are from such n such and we're such n such!" I envy the shit out of you. I really do. I just want to be able to say in response, "Oh well, I'm African American and my family came from the Ashanti tribe of Western Africa in Ghana."...I feel like my African heritage is nothing but a mystery and hell...I'd be niave if I said it wasn't gonna be that way for maybe the rest of my life. But even when I look to my mother's side and see the little bit of Bajan & Panamanian side of me, it's just as deep as a mystery. At least I have names (and maybe faces) to put to those family members.

So my thing is this. If Kwanzaa is about celebrating one's roots, how can I celebrate something that is so intangible to me? How can I forget my roots if it is something I have no knowledge of? I have no problem with sitting down, lighting the symbolic candles, drinking from the unity cup and reciting words in a language I don't know. I mean has it become so ritualistic that it's secular (despite the non-religious roots) like Christmas? (I hope I don't offend anyone just then).

After Christmas, I'll light the candles, recite the words and I will bask in the glory of Pan-Africanism, uniting with my people and celebrating how far we've come. But still. Even then in the back of my mind. The questions will linger.

It's Been A Long Time...

2008-12-17T19:05:00.001-05:00

Massacre
Originally uploaded by Lump Of Hesitation

Wow! Holy Schmoly. Its been a long time since I've written in this blog! Longer than I thought (i.e the broken pencil). I haven't posted an entry since Sarah Palin was announced to be the VP nominee ! As we all know Barack Obama is the president elect now (THANK YOU JESUS!) and alot has happened since then BUT I am gonna dedicate myself to writing in here more. Not that anyone reads this thing or cares. But Im also starting a new blog dedicated to promoting hot artists I listen to like Little Brother, Asheru, Cool Kids, Charles Hamilton, etc. Its gonna be called Listening Level. The name came to me in a dream....no it didn't lol. My friend Ibn and I were talking about how we love the 808s and Heartbreak album and how those who don't love it aren't on our listening level. I couldn't help but laugh in agreement. So I said "hmm...I'll upgrade these cats to the upper echelon of real hip hop music." Also I am starting a blog dedicated to cooking meals at my school in the cafe! Since Im paying over 40,000 a year to be at FDU the food better be off the fucking chain. Since it's not I have to improvise and "wok it up". My friends wonder how I turn something into nothing so...there! Its gonna be called either Wokin' It Up w/ Chef Toni or Cookin' In The Cafe w/ Chef Toni. I think I like the first one since "Wok It Up" is one of our food stations....AWESOME!

John McCain Are You Fucking Serious Right Now??

2008-08-29T15:45:00.003-04:00

Okay so the Republican National Convention started today. Today, McCain also picked his choice for VP- Alaska Governer Sarah Palin. Now normally I would not give a damn about what John McCain is doing but there are some key moves that McCain made that can be critical but he's fucking kidding himself if he thinks they are gonna work.

So he picked a woman. Does McCain think the Hillary supporters are going to come rushing over to support him now just because he picked a woman!? Don't get me wrong. It's a nice move but we don't know this woman! SHE HAS NO LEGACY. Wow she's the governer of the friggin last state to be annexed to the U.S. First of all she's been a governer for 20 months and was a mayor for 2 terms. Plus she's three years younger than Obama. So here this....

I DONT WANNA HEAR NO BODY FUCKING SAY OBAMA IS INEXPERIENCED BECAUSE THIS CHICK PALIN IS YOUNGER THAN OBAMA AND HAS NO EXPERIENCE WHEN IT COMES TO NATIONAL AND INTERNATIONAL POLITICS. HER BIGGEST TESTAMENT TO THE GOVERNMENT IS MAKING SURE THAT THERE IS ENOUGH SNOW FOR A DOG-MUSHING RACE. SO JOHN MCCAIN IF YOU FUCKING SAY OBAMA HAS INEXPERIENCE JUST LOOK TO YOUR RIGHT AND SEE WHO YOU HAVE AS YOUR RUNNING MATE. SOME HARD ASS BITTER CONSERVATIVE WOMAN WHO HAS NO EXPERIENCE HERSELF!

Another thing is that John McCain picked someone is younger than Obama.

DOES HE HONESTLY THING THIS WOMAN CAN INVIGORATE THE CROWD LIKE OBAMA CAN?! FUCK NO! DOES HE REALLY THINK THEY ARE GOING TO BRING THE YOUNG CROWD OUT LIKE OBAMA CAN?!? FUCK NO!

I'm sorry to anyone who is offended by this but tell me Im wrong! TELL ME IM WRONG! You know what...you cant so fuck off.

Keep Your Damn Chicken Sandwich!!!

2008-08-16T18:59:00.002-04:00

Well for the past week I have been watching the Beijing Olympics and with every commercial break there are advertisements by the "proud sponsors". Some of those sponsors are Home Depot, Coca Cola, etc but the most annoying of the sponsors has to be McDonald's. They have been promoting their new southern style chicken buscuit/sandwich for the past month and it just jumped full scale during the Olympics.

What gets me really heated in these commercials is how stereotypical the black people are acting in the commercials!

Why Being 18 Is Not All Thats Cracked Up To Be

2008-08-13T23:51:00.001-04:00

Birthday Cake
Originally uploaded by blupokadots2

So I've been 18 now for one month and 3 days. During my days of 17-year-old-hood I couldn't wait to turn 18. The freedom. The adulthood. The legality of being 18. Now that I am 18 I wish I can turn back. And I'll tell you why.

Remember those times you felt like you knew everything (maybe you did know everything) and people called you out for it? Well expect that everyone thinks that you know everything instead of looking for help and answers. When you are 18, people expect that you know everything and aren't in the age of niavety. Maybe your getting a bank card for the first time or getting your own doctor instead of a pediatrician. The people around you will expect you to know how to use a bank card and manage your account and find a proper physician. Who the fuck knows how to do that the minute they turn 18?? Well I sure don't.

Anyway I dont give a fuck.

What's Your Addiction?

2008-08-12T18:14:00.003-04:00

So, birthdays = FREE
Originally uploaded by * andrea .

is it money? is it girls? is it weed?. We all have our addictions whatever it may be. Mine just happens to be the sweetest sin. That's right. I'm addicted to Coldstone Creamery ice cream. Me and this delicious incarnation of heaven on earth met on one sun shiny day in the summer of 2006 in Virginia. My brother took me out for ice cream as a treat and asked me if I had ever had Coldstone Ice Cream. Coldstone hadn't caught up up North yet. At least by me so I figured I'd try it. Plus they told me they make the ice cream right in front of you and you can virtually have any flavor with any topping.

As a first timer I was wary of the Coldstone experience. I mean who eats cheesecake ice cream??! So I went with Cake Batter (which I eat regardless lmfao) and chocolate chips with some cookie dough. On the first bite I was in love. And then out of no where the people behind the counter start singing. Singing?? In an ice cream shop??!! They were so delighted and excited that I gave them a tip. The song was corny and cute and from there I was hooked. I knew that this is where I wanted to be. Once it caught on up here I even applied to work in the Coldstone in our nearby mall. Sadly they weren't hiring. Anyway. Where ever there is a Coldstone I am guaranteed to be there buying my favorite creation seen in the pic over there --> : Birthday Cake Remix aka Heaven in a Cup. Its Cake Batter ice cream with brownies, hot fudge and rainbow sprinkles. It has a taste so divine . It was my biggest regret not to have a delicious cup on my birthday WHEN ITS FREE. Ugh I was so disgusted. Nevertheless I am strong.

I know your thinking I'm too overboard just for some ice cream. BUT I KNOW YOU HAVE GUILTY PLEASURES TOO! THAT FOOT FETISH YOU DIDN'T WANT ANYONE TO KNOW ABOUT! EATING HERSHEY'S CHOCOLATE WITH ALMONDS! DRINKING MONSTERS AND RED BULLS! OR EATING A PACK OF SWEDISH FISH EVERY NIGHT! SO DON'T COME AT ME FOR WHAT I LOVE!! YOU CAN JUST TAKE YOUR BEN AND JERRYS, YOUR HAAGEN DASZ AND JUST SHOVE IT! .....well...whatever your addiction is let me know. I wanna hear about your sweetest sins. Anyway, I'm off to go get some Coldstone.

Why No One Cares About My Blog

2008-08-11T23:47:00.003-04:00

So I've had this blog for a while. And still I blog to no one. I thought having this thing was supposed to be fulfilling. Maybe the lack of promotion may be the cause but I figured importing the blog as a note on facebook would do something for me and its gotten me some views but no shout outs. I thought about some of the reasons why someone would not want to look at my blog. Number 1 is because its always a semi-rant going on and sometimes I make little to no sense like this one right here. Oh well. Anyway I'm done rambling on about this I'm still watching the Olympics. GO TEAM U.S.A!

Why Seth Rogen is the Fucking Man!...

2008-08-06T15:25:00.004-04:00

Lio embarazoso 9
Originally uploaded by pilipeli33

Okay so I'm going to see Pineapple Express today with Chrissy. A little less than a month ago I wouldn't go and see a stoner movie like Pineapple Express until I saw Knocked Up which is honestly the funniest shit I've seen in a long time. Seth first appeared in a supporting role on Freaks and Geeks along with Pineapple Express co-star James Franco(which is the shit!) Then he starred in and co-produced another funny ass movie, The 40-Year Old Virgin which was directed by Judd Apatow. This is like the start of the frigging Rogan/Apatow Funny Machine Alliance! Well actually that started with Freaks and Geeks because Apatow directed it. They then did Knocked Up of course which had me peeing in my pants especially at the part where Seth curses out the doctor over the phone...

Hey Doc Howard, Ben Stone calling, guess what the fuck's up? Allison is going into labor and you are not fucking here, you know where your at? Your at a fucking bar mitzvah in San Francisco you motherfucking piece of shit, and you know what I'm gonna have to do now? I'm going have to kill you, I'm gonna pop a fucking cap in your ass. Your dead, your Tupac, you are fucking Biggie you piece of shit, I hope you fucking die or drop the chair and kill that fucking kid... I hope your plane crashes, peace fucker!

Oh yeah Rogan was also in You Me and Dupree where he stole his friends Asian porn out the trash lmfao XD. I didn't even know he was in Anchorman (another Apatow hit that was friggin hilarious) until Wikipedia told me. SUPERBAD! Which I have yet to see (-____-) which he co-wrote and Apatow co-produced. And then Drillbit Tayler which I didn't see yet either. So what's next for Rogan?? He's gonna play the Green Hornet in the Green Hornet movie in 2010!!! Wowza. So yeah he's a friggin comedic genius and Apatow is also the man. Keep cranking the funny machine gentlemen because 18 year old teenage girls approve. LMFAO.

CANT WAIT TO SEE PINEAPPLE EXPRESS IM LIKE JUMPING OUT OF MY SEAT!

//Edit
PINEAPPLE EXPRESS WAS PISS IN YOUR PANTS FUNNY! OMG

Toni's Top 12 Thicksational Women! - Jill Scott

2008-08-04T14:35:00.004-04:00

Number 6 - Jill Scott
Jill from the Phil first began her career as a spoken word artist until she was discovered by ?estlove from The Roots. She then released her first album in 2000 which went double platinum. Recently she starred in Tyler Perry's Why Did I Get Married. So why do I love Jill Scott? Because she took her spoken word artistry and emerged as a music phenom. As a poet myself, I got alot of respect for Ms. Jill.

Toni's Top 12 Thicksational Women! - Chrisette Michele

2008-08-04T14:23:00.004-04:00

Number 7 - Chrisette Michele

Before Chrisette Michele rose to R&B fame, she was a gospel singer in bother high school and college. So why do I love Chrisette Michele? Anyone who as heard Michele's debut album knows that her style is sultry and reminiscent of jazz. It is not your cookie cutter R&B album. Nowadays that is something we need.

Toni's Top 12 Thicksational Women! - Niecy Nash

2008-08-02T15:53:00.003-04:00

Number 8 - Niecy Nash

Niecy Nash is most famous for her role on the Comedy Central hit Reno 911. She is also known as the host of Clean House on the Style Network. So why do I love Niecy? Because Niecy is the epitome of fabulous! Anyone who sees her on Clean House knows she always has a flower in her hair and a smile on her face!

Toni's Top 12 Thicksational Women! - Toccara Jones

2008-08-01T17:33:00.007-04:00

Number 9 - Toccara Jones

Fabolous Toccara is perhaps best known as the plus size contestant on season 3 of America's Next Top Model. During the show Toccara won Cover Girl of the Week 4 times. But Toccara is not just a pretty face. Since ANTM, Toccara has signed with Wilhelmina Models and has been on the covers of KING and FHM (nearly baring it all x_x). She has modeled for Ashley Stewart, Target, Avon and Torrid. Like other top tenner Kimberly Locke, Toccara was a contestant on Celebrity Fit Club (season 2) where she lost 32 pounds. She's back on the show again - boot camp style. Toccara was also a host on BET's Take The Cake where whe found out she was not too bright....anyway. BTW, Toccara has her own t-shirt line, Big and Fabulous (IM DYING TO GET ONE OF THESE SHIRTS!) So why do I love Tocarra?! Because she is BIG AND FABULOUS!

Toni's Top 12 Thicksational Women! - Raven Symone

2008-08-01T17:29:00.004-04:00

Number 8 - Raven Symone

Before Raven was a Cheetah Girl with fellow top tenner Sabrina Bryan, Raven was Olivia on the sitcom, the Cosby Show. Raven grew up and ended up starring in the Disney Channel hit series Thats So Raven and then the Cheetah Girls. However, the Cheetah Girls had a falling out and Raven moved on to bigger and better things like dropping 2 albums (even though they didnt seel so good) and starring in her first feature film College Road Trip with comedy veteran, Martin Lawrence. So why do I love Raven?? Because Raven is a big girl doing big things!

Toni's Top 12 Thicksational Women! - Kimberly Locke

2008-08-01T17:27:00.004-04:00

Number 9 - Kimberly Locke

On season 2 of American Idol, Kim took alot of flack from Simon about her weight. Despite that she made it all the way to the final 3 (along with Clay Aiken & Rubben Studdard). Kimberly eventually took Simon's bantering to heart and appeared as a contestant on Celebrity Fit Club where she lost 27 pounds. She was then signed to Ford Models and the rest is history! As of 2007 she lost 40 pounds and looks good! So why do I love Kimberly?? Because she's got the confidence to perform on stage in her bra and underwear. (youtube that one lol) And she looks damn good.

Toni's Top 12 Thicksational Women! - Sabrina Bryan

2008-08-01T16:20:00.007-04:00

Okay recently I made a post about how sometimes I can feel a bit ugly...-___-. Anyway. I decided that there are beautiful curvy women out there like myself and I deccided to tell you who my favorites are! The list goes from 10 to 1.

Number 10 - Sabrina Bryan

We've seen Sabrina on the 5th season of Dancing With The Stars but before that Sabrina was strutting her stuff as a Cheetah Girl. So why do I love Sabrina? Because that girl can dance! Get em!

Sometimes I Feel Ugly...

2008-07-30T18:46:00.002-04:00

obesity
Originally uploaded by HenryScow

I'm not the type to complain about situations that can be fixed or changed in anyway, but I've been feeling really ugly on the inside and out. I kinda realized this weeks ago at Brooke's graduation barbeque....

It's a great thing to know that you have friends and people in your life who love you for the way you are. Sometimes I get overwhelmed with happiness just knowing that. So at the bbq, Brooke told me outta no where really, not being inclined to say it or anything, that her friend (ugh I wish I can remember her name! Jasmine was it?...) said that I was really pretty. And hindsight now I don't remember being so flippin estatic that another person thought I was pretty. Especially meeting me for the first time. I think on the inside I must have gone beserk with happiness and appreciation. I still go beserk thinking about it. Now I have to explain that Brooke's friend was really pretty herself! Infact gorgeous. She was light-skinned, had chinky eyes ( definately mixed now that I think about it) and she was stylish. Now before you guys start thinking Im homo Im not. I just thought she was a pretty girl. So for her to say this to...regular me I was kinda taken back for a second.

Alright Antoinette so whats the point? Is that what your saying? The point is that I shouldnt go beserk when someone says Im pretty. I should already know it. Of course I think Im pretty. Hell Im drop dead gorgeous and just sexy-fly in my book. When I look in the mirror I feel great but when I see pictures of myself I feel somewhat disguisted. Sometimes I wish I could have an out of body experience to see myself and look at myself as another person to see if what I see in the mirror is a lie to what I really look like to other people.

Im not happy with myself. And ya know like I said Im not the type to complain and not do anything about it. Weight has always been a problem with me. I remember people saying to me when I was younger if I was pregnant and all through middle school I was teased. Stuff like that doesnt faze me but yet sometimes I feel ugly! I've gone to "fat camps" (yeah you guys saw that MTV series? I WAS THERE AT THAT CAMP FOR 3 SUMMERS!..they filmed the year I didnt go) I've played Lacrosse for 4 years (ladies we all know I can run!) I've seen a nutritionist, been on weight watchers, seen endocrinologists, cardiologists, etc. They all tell me if I go any deeper into this basically Im gonna die. yay *super sarcasm*.

So now what...Im going away to college where Im gonna be working my ass off on the big ass hilly campus! yay *non sarcasm* and I'll be in the gym 4 times a week *homework permitting*. I just wish I wasn't in this alone. I wish I had someone there to guide me but being basically the largest person I know in both family and friend circles its a lonely battle. Now I don't want you guys to comment like "just go outside and run, eat good, yada yaaa". Anyone who knows me (especially Ashley Douglas! knows Im the PICKIEST eater on earth and she has a hard time eating at my house with all the low fat, no calorie, no sugar, low sodium stuff lol). I just need guidance...and maybe a trainer lol.

//Edit. Okay its been one day since I made this post. In retrospect I think I was complaining a bit despite the fact I said I wasn't. I think I was looking for someone to take ownership of this problem along with me when really the solution to the problem lies in my own hands and my hands alone. yurp.

WHY IS EVERYBODY HATIN ON KANYE WEST!?!?!?

2008-07-18T18:48:00.001-04:00

Kanye West
Originally uploaded by KLCole

Yo. Why the hell is everyone hatin on my man, the one and only Kanye West?!! I don't get it. There has been a load of hateration floating around the net and I don't appreciate it. I would tell you why but I gotta go. Going to see Dark Knight tonight.

Wipeout : Ninja Warrior for American Idiots.

2008-07-10T23:24:00.002-04:00

sdcc 2006 - ninja i,wzl
Originally uploaded by woolloomooloo

When will Americans learn to leave shit alone?! We always gotta take shit and dumb it down and can't ever be original!

Yesterday I just happened to be turned to ABC and Wipeout came on. You know that new show where you watch people tackle an obstacle course and bust their asses on live TV at a chance to win 50k g's. Yeah Yeah that show!!! FUCKING HILARIOUS RIGHT?! HAHA HA HA HAHA HA....fuck no. I understand that the guy from Talk Soup and that other hack and the chick from the Mercury car commercial are supposed to be our little commentators and additional outlets of funny but lets face it, their corny. Now lets take a look at this "obstacle course". Its basically a big ass slip and slide course. If you've seen the show, tell me how the fuck do you expect people to be able to jump across big ass bouncy ass balls?? Huh?? They don't expect you to. Its basically there to watch people look like idiots on national tv for entertainment. or did American Idol do that? Nevertheless this show is basically Ninja Warrior for idiots.

I don't really appreciate and Im sure the makers of Ninja Warrior don't either. If any of you watch Sasuke (Ninja Warrior) G4TV you know that to be on the show it requires skill. It requires strength, endurance and overall just plain technique to make it through the stages. Wipeout requires basically 1/4th of brain power. Its kind of a shame. I wish someone would give me 50k g's to make a fool out of myself. Then maybe I can pay for college.

Well...Ain't This Some Ol' Bull Shit

2008-07-04T20:12:00.003-04:00

viacom-vs-google
Originally uploaded by Rebecca Gillis

*warning. this entry has alot of cursing and is basically a rant. you were warned.*

Incase your living under a rock. the greatest tech news to come out this week was that due to a court order Google has to turn over a shit load of information to Viacom. That shit load includes every single user IP address and name and the list of every video you have ever watched. So all of you people watching free episodes of Avatar (like me lol) or Real World, Mind of Mencia, Best Week Ever, College Hill or any Paramount movie, Viacom is gonna know. Yes even that video of the tranny midget impersonator (thanks AOTS) and the Chocolate Rain vid. PLUS they have the right to know every single video that has been on Yotube and has been taken off of Youtube regardless of the reason. Oh and don't think Google video isn't accountable either. Supposedly these stuck up "no-one-else-has-the-right-to-watch-my-shit-online" bitches only want it to create a study that proves the success of Youtube is due to illegally uploaded Viacom videos plus a pinch of "massive intentional copyright/ property infringement" seeking over 1 billion dollars in damages. MY THOUGHTS AND EVERYONE ELSES THOUGHTS IS THAT THOSE BITCHES AT VIACOM WANNA SURE YOUR ASS! So if your the one uploading the free episodes of Top Model (the MTV reruns anyway) your getting sued up the ass.

I mean come the fuck on!! YouTube isn't uploading the videos. Users are. YouTube basically leaves it up to us users to alert them about copyright infringement so they may take it down. But most of us are too busy watching to report it anyway.

To be honest. I think this is some bull shit. The internet is free space. No one owns it. Have those Via-cunt bitches ever heard of Net Neutrality!? (Google it. No seriously Google has a page on net neutrality.) Even though this isn't a net neutraility issue. Im still pissed off at this Via-cunt bitches.

They are going alittle too far beyond what is necessary. Do they really have to know my name. What if someone comes to my house and uploads a video on my Youtube acount of like...every episode of Real World ever! plus some movies. I didn't do it...but since their on my computer and logged into my account Viacom has the right to knock on my door like "HEY YOU UPLOADED THESE VIDEOS AND NOW WE'RE GONNA SUE YOU FOR ALL YOUR WORTH WHICH IS ABOUT 6.375 BILLION DOLLARS." Yeah iight bitches...

Well I guess Im done ranting about this. I would make a YouTube video about this but I don't wanna be sued up the ass for that either. So while the internet is still free for me to blog. Its on here. So I'm out. Im going to watch Avatar season 3 on Youtube while I still can.

No Money, Mo' Problems

2008-07-01T17:39:00.002-04:00

Empty
Originally uploaded by razzlefrazzle

Summer time and the livin is easyyy....hmmm I love the song. Too bad it isn't as true as it used to be. Summer time means gas prices are going up and money is getting harder to spread out. I still don't have a summer job and I've been searching and calling everywhere. I got hired at this place called Vector but I dont wanna talk about that. Still I coulda had 1000 right now. Anyway.

We started the loan process for school and I got turned down for the NJCLASS loan. Now I have to find out another way to get money for school. I just wish I can work!! I need that money to buy shit for my dorm and save up for books. I feel so stressed x_x. I don't wanna be stuck in the house all day. I want to work. But its not coming that easy to me.

I HATE This Song!!

2008-05-14T22:21:00.002-04:00

NEW LIL WAYNE- LOLLIPOP
Originally uploaded by a_a518babez

I don't get why anyone would be hype over a song talking about humping and getting head and all kinds of dumb shit! I'm so sick of rap music and everyone give a round of applause for fucking Lil Wayne who ruined it for everyone!

He released that damn new song lollipop. No disrespects to Static Major who died but...THAT SONG IS A PIECE OF FUCKING SHIT. First of all he opened the song saying "no homo"....come the fuck on now. If you open the song saying no homo you just made that shit gay. Like GOD DAMN. I'm going on a rant right now yall because I just don't believe how people can make songs and be made fuckin rich over bull shit. I got tons of examples. here I go:

1. Soulja Boy- Crank Dat (WHAT IS HE SAYING ON THE SONG)
2. Lil Wayne - Lollipop (can't leave this out)
3. Dream - Falsetto (nigga you gay. period.)

oh my gosh i cant even think of anymore. I'm just so hype right now. I need to just calm down....

*sigh*

Shout out to my main man Kanye West who took the Lollipop song, remixed that shit and made it a hit. YEEZY killed that shit in like the first 3 seconds of the song. Weezy took like...3 minutes to make me even listen. Anyway. I'm out.

Broken Heart: Past & Present

2008-04-13T00:05:00.002-04:00

broken heart
Originally uploaded by ginthefer

My prom dress came in at the store today! Im really hoping it fits and if it doesn't...well then Im screwed. Aside from that prom got me thinking about alot of things as in a date. Actually it was Demetrius who called me and got to talking about a prom date because he needed more people in his limo n such. He asked me who I had in mind about who I wanted to go with unwittingly knowing I was thinking about him, but he is already going with my real close friend Brooke and Im like shit! as if I didn't know already. (He is in love with this girl). I talked to Brooke about it. It was like a real awkward situation at Model Congress. I just confronted her about it in our hotel room bathroom and yeah...nothing i could quite do about that situation. I don't blame Brooke at all though just that now I've ran out of options. I really wanna go to prom with a date. Someone nice that I know and my dad would approve of. I don't wanna go with some chump with a 1.0 GPA who considers smoking weed to be a recreational sport. UGH things get so tough. I mean when it came to Demetrius I wanted alil more than just prom...I was thinking about going out with him but that got nixxed.

*sigh*

Then I got to thinking about my ex, Jason. Man I really screwed up in 8th grade. Did a lot of stupid things. A lot of things I didn't get to say like "I love you". Things I didn't get to do like be cuddled up in his arms. And its kinda sad because he is the last person whom I remember being happy with. After that ya know I felt like I couldn't open up or trust anyone anymore. Long story short - haters who I thought were my friends ended tearing us aprt and I kinda fucked it up by lying to him about the whole situation. I know that must have tore him up...

oh man this is too frustrating to even write about.

UGH WTF IS WRONG WITH OUR JUDICIAL SYSTEM!?

2008-04-08T18:01:00.003-04:00

Hey guys. Im just sitting here watching the news and tell me why some 24 year old pig in Philadelphia robbed and beat down an 81 year old great-grandmother until the point where her jaw was broken and now she doesn't even have the courage to go back and live in her own home that she has been in for more than 50 years. That is such a God damn shame! HOW LOW CAN YOU GET. Now things like this isn't so unusual in Philly I'll be honest. But this guy must have been arrested and sent to jail like 20 times. TALK ABOUT A HABITUAL OFFENDER. Why the hell do people like that get to roam the streets...man it makes me so mad.

Our justice system is just a big SNAFU. What we need to do with these filthy criminals is instead of sending our young men and women to the Middle East to loose their lives due to a flippin suicide bomb, send some of those criminals who've committed crimes like drug possession and gun possession and other assorted crimes (not rapists and pedophiles of course) to Iraq and let them follow the military code of conduct and serve their country in a tour in Iraq or Afghanistan. Let them rehabilitate themselves there! We spend so much damn many on keeping criminals in prison. Get some of these people off of our streets and allow them to rehabilitate themself there. Would you rather do 15 years for armed robbery in a jail where they rape you or get military training and serve this country for 1 year in Iraq.

I know it sounds odd and Iraq is not meant as a punishment for these criminals even though they deserve it but still...our tax monies need to be put to good use.

Crunch Time!

2008-04-05T20:02:00.003-04:00

Wassup world its Sway! sike...its just me, Antoinette. I got so much flippin work to do! >___<. Marking period ends Thursday and I gotta read a whole book. The Jungle. A classic. Gotta do some make up work and some regular work. A Phyics project. The Egg Drop. A classic. Wasn't my last post on procrastination? Odd huh? Well while I was gone I did a project which I got an A on and played some Lacrosse games.

WTF

2008-03-31T17:06:00.003-04:00

Just when you think everything is going your way, everything has to get all fudged up. Ever have one of those moments. That you find the perfect prom dress but it doesn't fit and there is only 2 more months to the prom kinda moment? That you can't just go back out and get another dress because you can only fit in plus-size moment?! I guess YOU probably didn't have to go through that but I do. Now doesn't that suck?!

Prom is supposed to be my moment. The night where I will shine like I always wanted to. I'm not an ugly girl make no mistake but being my size its like guys just smile at your face and keep moving. Why cant I be appreciated in my entirety!? Well its not the guys Im worried about, its me. I just wanna feel beautiful for once in my life. JUST ONCE. That's all I ask. The main attraction. The focus of all the attention. Just once...

But No.

The flippin prom company doesn't have my size so now I gotta get it a size smaller. I don't mind working hard but my boobs aren't getting any smaller and my ass definately isn't going anywhere. The waist I can manage but I just wanna be comfortable in my own skin. I don't mind working hard to fit into a dress. Its no biggie. But not where I gotta crash diet and suck my gut in everytime slipping a few breaths of air here and there. *sigh*

Ill get over it though.

Now all I need is a new date...don't get me started on THAT situation. Payce.

Procrastination

2008-03-30T10:11:00.003-04:00

Mint Brussels
Originally uploaded by ♥ Cicily

mMMmm brussels. lol.

Mornin folks! *crickets chirp* Today Im supposed to be getting my hair done by a friend. Getting some braids. Im alittle worried about how tight its going to be and how professional looking its going to look but if all else fails- I'll just take em out. Plus I only gotta deal with it for about 2 months. Its better than dealing with my hair during the sports season. i sweat too much in Lacrosse for me to have to do my hair everyday.

Despite the fact that it is early, Im quite behind on school work. I need to finish a 3 person project that turned into a one person effort and I need to do all other sorts of other work. ALL FOR AP CLASSES. Well I guess its my fault for wasting spring break by playing the Sims 2. Anyone else addicted? I think I'll be able to finish my gov't work early and then later on, work on ms. bodnar's paper and then Im done. sounds easy right? Easier said than done. I think I enjoy procrastination. I get some sort of adrenaline rush just thinking about it. I say to myself-"one more hour and I'll do it" then I don't. I like applying the pressure to myself sometimes. I feel I would be better off without it though. Whatever the case, I gotta do what I gotta do.

Still blogging to no one....

//edit

braids turned out wonderful! however I still procrastinated...

i want some brussels.

2008-03-30T01:03:00.001-04:00

hello world. well...e-world. my name is antoinette miles and this is my blog-the schpeel. its like 1:04am on a Saturday and out of the blue i decided to start a blog. maybe i should stop acting like an idiot and actually CAPITALIZE. There... -___- . Im real tired right about now and my stomach is aching with hunger pains. I could use some brussels right about now- the cookie I mean. Their so bangalicious! ....*note to self never say bangalicious*. If you don't know about them run to your nearest convenience store and get some brussels by petteridge farm. I want some brussels. I might be coming off alittle fat right now but mind you I am awake at 1 am blogging to no one. I guess I wanted a place to ramble on the internet after taking a hiatus from web design. If anyone cares to know I did web designing for quite some years. I miss it but I don't have the time nor the money to set up a domain just for me to ramble on the internet when I can do it for free here on blogger. I guess what drove me to blogger was seeing my ex-band teacher's blog with pictures of his wife and kids. I thought-"how cute!". Didn't leave a message though. It might show some weird attachment between a teacher and student and I don't wanna go there. Any sensible person would say there isn't anything wrong with kitting (keep in touch-ing?) but about 9% of the population is sensible *made up statistic*. I guess I'm part of that other 91%. AGH I'm so hungry. And tired. I guess I'm done laying my burdens down today. See ya tomorrow e-world. This is the schpeel.