My prom dress came in at the store today! Im really hoping it fits and if it doesn't...well then Im screwed. Aside from that prom got me thinking about alot of things as in a date. Actually it was Demetrius who called me and got to talking about a prom date because he needed more people in his limo n such. He asked me who I had in mind about who I wanted to go with unwittingly knowing I was thinking about him, but he is already going with my real close friend Brooke and Im like shit! as if I didn't know already. (He is in love with this girl). I talked to Brooke about it. It was like a real awkward situation at Model Congress. I just confronted her about it in our hotel room bathroom and yeah...nothing i could quite do about that situation. I don't blame Brooke at all though just that now I've ran out of options. I really wanna go to prom with a date. Someone nice that I know and my dad would approve of. I don't wanna go with some chump with a 1.0 GPA who considers smoking weed to be a recreational sport. UGH things get so tough. I mean when it came to Demetrius I wanted alil more than just prom...I was thinking about going out with him but that got nixxed.
*sigh*
Then I got to thinking about my ex, Jason. Man I really screwed up in 8th grade. Did a lot of stupid things. A lot of things I didn't get to say like "I love you". Things I didn't get to do like be cuddled up in his arms. And its kinda sad because he is the last person whom I remember being happy with. After that ya know I felt like I couldn't open up or trust anyone anymore. Long story short - haters who I thought were my friends ended tearing us aprt and I kinda fucked it up by lying to him about the whole situation. I know that must have tore him up...
oh man this is too frustrating to even write about.
Broken Heart: Past & Present
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Sunday, April 13, 2008
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