Just when you think everything is going your way, everything has to get all fudged up. Ever have one of those moments. That you find the perfect prom dress but it doesn't fit and there is only 2 more months to the prom kinda moment? That you can't just go back out and get another dress because you can only fit in plus-size moment?! I guess YOU probably didn't have to go through that but I do. Now doesn't that suck?!
Prom is supposed to be my moment. The night where I will shine like I always wanted to. I'm not an ugly girl make no mistake but being my size its like guys just smile at your face and keep moving. Why cant I be appreciated in my entirety!? Well its not the guys Im worried about, its me. I just wanna feel beautiful for once in my life. JUST ONCE. That's all I ask. The main attraction. The focus of all the attention. Just once...
But No.
The flippin prom company doesn't have my size so now I gotta get it a size smaller. I don't mind working hard but my boobs aren't getting any smaller and my ass definately isn't going anywhere. The waist I can manage but I just wanna be comfortable in my own skin. I don't mind working hard to fit into a dress. Its no biggie. But not where I gotta crash diet and suck my gut in everytime slipping a few breaths of air here and there. *sigh*
Ill get over it though.
Now all I need is a new date...don't get me started on THAT situation. Payce.
WTF
Procrastination
mMMmm brussels. lol.
Mornin folks! *crickets chirp* Today Im supposed to be getting my hair done by a friend. Getting some braids. Im alittle worried about how tight its going to be and how professional looking its going to look but if all else fails- I'll just take em out. Plus I only gotta deal with it for about 2 months. Its better than dealing with my hair during the sports season. i sweat too much in Lacrosse for me to have to do my hair everyday.
Despite the fact that it is early, Im quite behind on school work. I need to finish a 3 person project that turned into a one person effort and I need to do all other sorts of other work. ALL FOR AP CLASSES. Well I guess its my fault for wasting spring break by playing the Sims 2. Anyone else addicted? I think I'll be able to finish my gov't work early and then later on, work on ms. bodnar's paper and then Im done. sounds easy right? Easier said than done. I think I enjoy procrastination. I get some sort of adrenaline rush just thinking about it. I say to myself-"one more hour and I'll do it" then I don't. I like applying the pressure to myself sometimes. I feel I would be better off without it though. Whatever the case, I gotta do what I gotta do.
Still blogging to no one....
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braids turned out wonderful! however I still procrastinated...
i want some brussels.
hello world. well...e-world. my name is antoinette miles and this is my blog-the schpeel. its like 1:04am on a Saturday and out of the blue i decided to start a blog. maybe i should stop acting like an idiot and actually CAPITALIZE. There... -___- . Im real tired right about now and my stomach is aching with hunger pains. I could use some brussels right about now- the cookie I mean. Their so bangalicious! ....*note to self never say bangalicious*. If you don't know about them run to your nearest convenience store and get some brussels by petteridge farm. I want some brussels. I might be coming off alittle fat right now but mind you I am awake at 1 am blogging to no one. I guess I wanted a place to ramble on the internet after taking a hiatus from web design. If anyone cares to know I did web designing for quite some years. I miss it but I don't have the time nor the money to set up a domain just for me to ramble on the internet when I can do it for free here on blogger. I guess what drove me to blogger was seeing my ex-band teacher's blog with pictures of his wife and kids. I thought-"how cute!". Didn't leave a message though. It might show some weird attachment between a teacher and student and I don't wanna go there. Any sensible person would say there isn't anything wrong with kitting (keep in touch-ing?) but about 9% of the population is sensible *made up statistic*. I guess I'm part of that other 91%. AGH I'm so hungry. And tired. I guess I'm done laying my burdens down today. See ya tomorrow e-world. This is the schpeel.